这一个阶段的我

从天灾战事助人梦里飞行

愿星光终照亮倾出爱的心

微风中笑著愿随互爱精神

眼望见若意外情急

情终不自禁

能竭尽气力作护荫

我真心

就算牺牲 不需要问回赠

越过胸襟 将会让过万众跳出抖震

无止境漂泊 没掌声与欢欣

无声的国度助人梦里飞行

愿一天终听着歌声与欢欣

晨曦中暗地独随互爱精神 

这首词从很久以前就烙在心里，经常不经意地想去听，那时也还没有YouTube吧。。要下载一首歌不难，但我总是没那个心情和耐心。 当我在某天突然想起，用心一听，不知觉的鸡皮疙瘩都起了！只因，我已投入人道主义工作。几年的经验，因该也称得上经历吧，让我深深的体会到感同身受的那一股感觉，感动。 怎么说呢。。真的，一切所想所做的，都没掌声与欢欣，但那不是重点。欣慰的永远是那受护者的微笑，一句道谢胜于上司们的承认。 我的工作不大且低调，但愿一天真的可以听见歌声与欢欣也希望大家愿随互爱❤️精神。我，真心。

不知还会在这一圈绕多久，但我会加油，难得心里还有那一团火！

感谢天父的代领，只要是祢为我而铺的真路，我会一直走下去。：）

Amazing Grace

温暖的晨光透过蓝蓝的天，白白的云，和绿绿的树叶照到在陆地的我。感觉轻松了好多，好多。。

很感恩可以有破镜重圆的一天，感谢天父送我的这一份礼物。Thank you Father for this amazing grace.  ：）虽然，让我们重拾友情的过程辛苦难堪，也错过了不少，但终算值得。天父对事情的安排是我无法预测，猜透的。那时还真的以为我又即将失去另一段友情，又再度跌回那无底洞，嚎啕的哭。怎知那一系列的痛其实是祂在为我铺路。。重重的伤是要让我明白问题的所在和失去的原因。很庆幸的，很感恩的，我竟然懂了。我并没有失去，而是获得更多。

爬出那一次的黑暗终算拥有了更清晰的视线，以往虚伪的颜色也不见了。 友情，到底是什么？我不确定，定义从我很坚持一直到我失去方向，信心和绝望。它又再一次需要被从新定位。 其实，我懂了一点，每一个人的定义都不同，在一段真挚的友谊，也许真的没有所谓的对不对，只是适不适合而已。倘若不适合又无法了解和谅解，那。。君子之交可能是更好的选择。 我会默默的继续为我关心的人，事和物祷告，愿一切安详，喜乐。

他那一句，“从今以后，我就是你最好的朋友，有我就够了。”  Haha.. 夫復何求 ：）

The best thing I learned in 2013 - Leave it in God's hand. 

Thank you Father, thank you Jesus. 

我们的，主题曲

2nd November, 2013. Another Memorable Day. 

Work has been really crazy thus far.. Overloading stress has caused my body to complain and protest aggressively. I needed music, loads of music when I was struggling to complete my final report. Phone rang and I picked up.. My personal Mr. DJ called and began playing notes from his keyboard. I was surprised for his kind and sweet gesture, no reason for me not to put my work aside for a moment. I lied down on my bed, and start listening and selecting songs which I want to hear. Best moment ever! hehe..

Out of the blue, and he said to me "oh ya.. I must sing you this song, 我的心底话，very much." Then, he started singing and ensured that I paid attention to the lyric. I love it! very much, but the song can't beat what he said next, "oh! This is our song, our theme song!" haha.. we finally have a theme song after two years, hahaha! So sweet of him and so lucky of me! I am always grateful, till now, to be able to meet you and be with you. Thank you for coming into my life, :) Love you much! Hope we can have many many good days ahead and yes, I have found my haven too. :) 

牵着你在天空飞翔

这样看世界不一样

有了你在身旁笑的脸庞

世界或许

就这么宽广

忽然就忘记了慌张

人海之中你最明亮

无意间的影响

渐渐扩张

你丰富我 生活感想

何必寻找所谓的天堂

原来我因为你

不想再去流浪

情愿平凡

不拥有一切也无妨

有了你在心上

已然是天堂

已经是天堂

"Whisper of the Heart"

I love this picture! It's from my favourite artist - Hayao Miyazaki. His arts never fail to inspire me! 

Anyway, I finally have my own external hard disk!! I have so much to do with this little violet blue passport~ to keep all photos taken in previous years, to organize it like a personal library.. etc, thinking about it has already spiced my mood up! :D 

And you know what? It has been awhile that I am thinking to de-activate my FB account.. many reasons, if you ask me why. Well, one is many close friends of mine aren't that active and one has eventually closed her account. So yea~ plus, it takes so much effort and time to group my "friends" and limiting the audience. >:(   Frankly, maybe no one cares!! haha.. why am I so fussy and paranoid about then? It's just me I guess. 

Today~ I have copied most of the pictures from my FB into this lil passport and change the setting to "only me". The said personal library will begin establishing tonight or tomorrow night. :) So what will I do with my FB account now? Hmm.. I think I will start watching more posts/videos shared by friends. hehe.. sounds like a stalker eh? 

It's been awhile since I did "house keeping for my friend list! If you know me well, you would know that I ain't that anti social but I just don't grow to fancy "strangers" or friend's friends. :/  Not your problem, believe me. But now that everything is private, I guess I don't mind approving more people whom I have yet to "know" or "trust". 

I missed blogspot, from time to time. Not many people will click on and read, just like my diary! Forgive my laziness as typing is easier than writing. haha.. 

29 is coming and 30 is not far from me! What's the big resolutions and plans for year 2013? 

- Be positive and confident, locked that in mind and colour my soul 

- Stay Healthy, run more and sweat more! 

- No chips & deep fried food (so far so good!) 

- A new career, new prospect and new direction

- A relationship with God. 

- Be kind!!

So much to share, so much to worry, so unnecessary!! haha! 

Good day folks! :) 

Happy 2013!! 

怎么爱你都不够

不久前听到这一句话，说是男生的心声。
也许吧！然而，我今天却有新的领悟：家人，传统的一个家庭，这不就是那根深蒂固的问题吗？因为不管你、她、他或他们做了多少，似乎都无法弥补过去。过去的，过不去，有何良药可以让这种种的心病痊愈？我想，只有神人才懂吧。
我怎么爱你，都不够。

无须有，苦的一页

在这样的一个夜里，我嚎啕的哭了。忍住那从心无名的痛，让脑放肆的重播昨晚听过的话。。我不要再问了，我也不想懂了，万万想不到我会那么伤心。一切都是过去式，但我却输给自己的记忆能力，我会忘掉吗？怎办呢？烙下去了吗？我不要。疯狂的想象力让我窒息。。我要祷告，请让我不再为这些假象的恐惧心痛，放空，影响。鼻塞了。。眼蒙了。。我想有人给个拥抱我。我真是个胆小鬼。但，终于哭出来，舒服多了。。。 爱一个人，不容易哦。。

I am here dedicating this song to you..

who are going through a breakup..

experienced a real love..

lost a love..

met someone at a wrong place, wrong time..

someone specially for you is awaiting somewhere.. 

walk forward and you will meet =) 

分开之后另一年的春天

记忆也像下雪一样溶解

那些有你在身边的影片

呼的一声飞得老远老远

爱在夏天过完之后 锁在秋天

当爱过多年之后的我 好了一些

雨后的天上 彩虹出现 衬出一片蓝天

我在淋过一场大雨之后的晴朗

那是春雨里洗过的太阳

每个冬季带来失落 伤得多深

然后忽然看懂云的形状

If you listen to the rhythm of the pouring rain

每个呼吸都是新的芬芳

流下的眼泪 留下了智慧

爱情会天亮 也一定会黑

世界会等我 它问我冬天过去没

那是春雨里洗过的太阳 (春雨你的太阳)

每个冬季带来失落 伤得多深 (伤得多深)

每个呼吸都是你的芬芳

春雨里洗过的太阳

好難得...

好難得 我們遇見了對的人
難得好幾輩子的好運才有機會完成
好難得 我們愛上了對的人
就算他不是到最後的人
也祝他更勇敢愛別人
 =)

You deserve goodness and you will receive it..

L.o.V.e 

Learn to <3

Learn to care 

A caring word may warm a cold cold heart

Learn to receive love

Open up your locked heart, 

Listen, listen to your heart.. "Is the padlock keeping you in or keeping the people out?" 

Courage, yuuki. 

Ganbate, the sky loves everyone who loves themselves and love others.

=)

Guardian Angel

A Time to Cheer

A Time to Cry

A Time to Laugh

A Time to Sigh

A Time for You

A Time for Me

A Time of Really Falling In Lo.V.e 

A Day when I really feel like Writting

  

Today, a "long lost" feeling surfaces and tickles me.. "write something.." I hear it repeating gently. It's really been awhile from the previous blog, yes.. I'm just lazy, very lazy in jotting down my thoughts and emotions. Originally, I was planning to write in Mandarin as I can see the characters dancing in my mind, forming my thoughts into sentences and they're waiting me to lay them out on a piece of paper or blog, perhaps, even by reciting it. Unfortunately, when I'm all set to blog it, I realized that this laptop only has "Eng - US". Oh well.. maybe not this time. :)

My words and thoughts are always being scribbled down in various notepad, planner, and scrap papers.. I flip through a brown petite notebook which has my most "recent" journals. I read, and I saw my sadness, worries, confession, courage and changes. Not sure if you have the same feeling, I tend to feel shy or rather awkward when reread my journals, ha. It's quite a complicated taste, bittersweet, sour-sweet, & blend.. 

So much had happened, I really want to thank God that I met this new person in my 28 age of life, Mr. W.C. Yupe! It sounds like "toilet", which coincidentally matches my last name "Loo". It just tickles me when I made the association. :) Not too sure how far this will last.. I have so much to write here but a line always hold me back from saying this. HE once told me that "ain't all girls dream of marrying the boyfriend they met? The first one, second one.. every relationship they have, they tend to think of marrying the person.." Honestly, I didn't say that he was wrong or debated it. Perhaps, it was indeed a blindspot that I've never realized and I'd been rationalizing it as "yes, I'm loyal girl". But now, I am certain that I know how I feel, I know that I can speak up when the timing is right, I know what I want in life, and most importantly, W.C understands all of these very well without me pushing it or needed to clarify repeatedly. It's like a spell, even I have problems accepting this. I doubt, him? No.. myself. Too much had happened which make me lost a bit of trust, or rather self-trust. Sometimes, it just amazed me how he gets my point and restating it well. Clarity, is what I see in this relationship at the moment. And, it feels good indeed. Thank you Mr. Tee :)

So much had happened, I really wish to retrieve the closeness with my best friend, Nee nee. No matter what have happened, I can't turn back time or adjust the clock to repair or undo it. I'm glad that she is happy, genuinely happy for her life now. I am happy for you, sincerely. Self-doubt, yes.. this just popping up again, and I am pressing "backspace, backspace..." again and again. Why? Cause, somehow, I am have tiny feeling telling me that, she has lost trust in me. The pure trust that we used to have. I know we have clarified and we promised that things are all right now. I think it just me, sense of guilt, sense of uncertainty, sense of distance.. I pray that all these will disappear when we meet again, hangout, chit-chat and tease each other like the good'o days. Just want to assure all of you that, I have learned to keep my distance, I recently heard a line.."It's a also a kind of respect when you know When to Step back". I am still practicing, please allow me take some time to master this. Remind me when I do it unintentionally again, I always welcome a gentle reminder. :) I bought a gift for Nee nee, it's still in my white shelve, I will hand it to you when I am ready. hehe.. All the best my dearest friend, I am here no matter what, let me know when you need help, or even just an ear. Anytime, anywhere. 

It's getting dark out there, hope the haze is gone by now.. I miss the sun shining brightly on the blue sky. Life goes on, C'est La Vie. :)

年少無知

作曲：黃貫中 填詞：林若寧 編曲：黃貫中 / 劉志遠 監製：黃貫中 Lyric @ Lemon Music Group 檸音樂歌詞網

年少多好　頑劣多好　不甘安於封建制度裡 迷信上街真理會達到
旗幟高舉　群眾聲討　不惜犧牲一切去上訴 權貴的想法太俗套
只可惜生活是一堆挫折　只可惜生命是必須妥協

年少多好　貧困多好　一蚊積蓄足以快樂到 廉價結他抒發我暴躁
財富得到　年歲不保　捐輸不必講究有回報 人世間總會有異數
只可惜生活是一聲發洩　只可惜生命是一聲抱歉　
怕追到

如果　命運能選擇　十字街口你我踏出的每步更瀟灑
如果　活著能坦白　舊日所相信價值不必接受時代的糟蹋

年少多好　朋友多好　一番爭執不會有被告
遊戲競爭不會記入腦 年歲增長　無法修補　
青春的詩總會老　時間多恐怖

如果　命運能選擇　十字街口你我踏出的每步無用困惑
如果　活著能坦白　舊日所相信價值今天發現還未老
如果　命運能演習　現實中不致接納一生每步殘酷抉擇
留守　過去的想法　我會否好像這樣生於世上無目的鞭撻

Thank you for letting me to meet you :)

Now that I've met you, I hope I can work, so we can work to work it out.

And I also hope you'll make me work, so we can work to work it out ~ ^^

Grey C'est La Vie

I am not sure what has brought my mood down, there were few things happened in a day.

Maybe, my body, heart are just too petite to fit everything in at once.

I wish, bottleneck problem can be solved.
I wish, he can be happy, healthy and get what he desires without hurting himself.
I wish, I don't have to face this dilemma.
I wish I could tell him that, I couldn't feel you.. I wish I know how I feel exactly..
I wish I will not regret, I wish I could feel you now.
I wish to tell you that, you are wrong.
I wish I could write things up, just to complete my work.
I wish I could graduate happily.
I wish I could tell you that I miss you.
I wish I could tell you that I ain't that great.
I wish I could help you to see I need you to take care of yourself better, even though I know this is what you want.
I wish I could tell you I love you Dad.. You have to love yourself too. Because, you have us.
I wish I could tear on his shoulder, I wish he will listen.. I wish he will not runaway.
I wish, I wish..

I wish

外. 遇. =)

 外国的际遇

当我知道去日本九州的日子越来越近,  心情超紧张的!! 前一晚, 赶紧上网查一查会到的景点.. 超期待!! 第一个当然是 Huis Ten Bosch 啦! 网页一load 好...  啊!! 这是...荷兰村么???

但是!!! 我却看见"海贼王" 的广告!!!! 那去荷兰村也不错哦! 可是网页上show - "Summer - End August 31st"  T.T  错过了吗? T.T 不会吧... 家人在旁也替我可惜.. "可能还有ler.." 不抱太大希望, 我还是乖乖找些别的资料吧.. Oh ya! 千万别忘了download and sync "好的事情"!! 可是...试了好多首,都没办法download.. 只好放弃了.. 行李, charger, headset, ipod, 全都有了.. 就是没有那首歌.. 哎..

终于到了 Huis Ten Bosch, 看见 好多好多 One Piece  的海报~! 还有吗? 可能我没错过哦! 可是日文不好, 只好问胖导游了.

导游: "没有, 还没开始.. 不要离队哦!"

这团里有一个看起来像有读漫画的,　问了他一下．．．他懂　 One Piece　但只看　＂火影忍者＂．．　世界上怎么有酱的人．．　没品味．　哈!　（我当然没对他说)　看来,　他不会有兴趣了．．算了，　胖导游可能骗我呢！

 我不太相信他, 硬着头皮, 问了一个会说少许中文的员工, 怎知她说 "有! 到今天 5.00 pm" ! Ehhhh~!!!!! hontoni?!!!! 不理了, 和 aunty, uncle 交代好, 就全力往 One Piece 冲去!!! 那时, 连地图也还没看懂..  连走带跑, 一路上一直用我的烂日语问路, 恰好问到一对穿 Trafalgar Law  衣服的情侣, 没错了!! 他们用中文对话, 我心想 "Ｗａｈｈ！天助我也！＂　我立刻用中文问，但他们却吓了一跳说　＂Ｅｈ！！她会说中文也！＂　我没时间解释，问了就继续冲！！　

终于到了!　听见那　One Piece　的主题曲,　心情舒畅了好多．．我跑了好远啊．．　怎知当我看见　＂千阳号"，　它已起航 ．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．

不是吧．．．．．　我快哭出来了！　紧张的跑去问售票员,　但听不太懂他说什么,　只知道那是最后一趟了．　

我竟然在他面前抓狂,　他为了让我好过点,　提议了我去玩 小型　＂Going Merry" . 我当下好想扁他！　人家已很难过 ,　什么小型　＂Going Merry"，　我不要！！

伤心的望着离开了的　＂千阳号＂，　对着大海叹气．．　其他旅客应该以为我傻了吧！忽然让我想到,　没上船没关系呀！拍照总可以吧！又用了我的半桶水日文问回刚刚那为售货员，　果然!　有哦！！！　突然间松了口气，　没枉来日本了！　（当时真的酱想!　跑了很长远哦！！）

当然我也成功上＂千阳号＂，　还拍了好多照留念！　嘻嘻！好开心！　接下来的日子都过得很不错,　因为我找到了一个旅行伙伴！他让这九州之旅好多了！　：）　年纪比我小的他竟然教我如何谈恋爱，说我的方法不对,　让对方太自由了,　然后有炫他有多本事，幸福．　（流汗.．．小孩.. Gaki desu)　懒得和他吵.．．　但,　不知什么时候开始．．．

我们就互相对骂，　＂笨蛋!　白痴!　好色小子!＂　旁若无人的．．．日本人应该觉得我们很粗俗吧！哈!　谈话中问知到他也喜欢周董,　不错哦！一样耶！问他:　

我:  "那你有没听过严爵的歌?"

他: "有啊, 哪首?"

 意外的是...他竟然唱得.....好好听!!!!!! 不知是我太想听到还是他真的很会唱, 很好听耶! 我平时很少会让别人的歌声 吸引, 但这次却真的觉得好听! 有耳福咯!!! 之后的几天都会过得很好咯! 哈哈! 意外收获! ^^   Hmmm....事情总是比想象的差! 他除了唱歌好听, 其余...没什么好提的..明明比我小却一直说我抄他! 但是.. 我们也蛮多共同点..  : 他也是左手的, 会弹钢琴, 也是只考到 Grade 3, 对虾子敏感.... 这..太巧了吧! 又是一个人来参加着团... (哎.. 可怜的我)

最后一天在天津市,  我们决定要吃寿司, 来日本怎么可以不吃呢!  可是导游给的地图没有说明~ 到了711, 问了售货员, 没想到他热情的向我们介绍, 还给了指示呢!

他: " 欸~ 你去问路, 记得扮可爱 点..."

我: " 什么?! BAKA!"

结果还是问到了! 原来Apple Store = Apple Inc ! 不是餐馆!!! 怎么没想到! 那间店就在附近.. 叫了几样寿司, 超超超好吃的!!!!!! 不枉我们走了那么远! 哈! ~! 吃饱后, 决定先回酒店休息冲凉再出发去 shopping~!!!!! 

 

但, 背了四天背包, 我肩膀快痛死了.. 没想到那小子竟同情的说到 "很痛哦? 哎呀..等下我帮你按一下吧.." 心想, 那么好人?! 怎知......等了一下, 他却没开始按..

原来..他拿起酒店 room service's menu 查价钱!!!! 我还以为他干嘛.... (流汗). 很冷吧!!!!!!!!!!  算了~ 我们还是继续走吧! 吃了一点寿司, 不饱, 我还想试日本道地的路边摊!

他又说冷笑话了... 还好他也陪我吃了... 才不可以因为他的笨而没得享受! 但, 我们却错过了日本Mc Donald~ lol ! 然后呢~  在我再三坚持, 我们也去了有名的红灯区! 不错的体验哦! 害羞的是他~呵呵!

哇~! 以下, 到了最后一天! 旅游一定会结束吧, 好想多听一次他唱的 "好的事情", 但..没时间了! 拜咯, 笨蛋小子! 谢谢你陪我走过的那些路.. (怎么这句那么熟啊?) 这趟九州之旅, 多了很多回忆!

记得你说过 , "你唱, 我听." Bye bye~ it was really nice meeting you! Take good care Gaki! :)

Great scenery, wonderful memories and people! There were a lot more funny stories, but I don't think I can post all of them! Just bit and pieces that I found it worth posting, hope you can feel my happiness too! hehehe.

Welcome Back - roller coaster months

Piggies's adventure: let's fly with all my nakamas. :D

Do you know why I was away from this "diary" for so long? I bet your first thought is "you broke up what" Well, I can't say you are totally wrong but I can only give you a B- for this guess. The truth is.. I have started my Master's in Counselling a year ago, it has been a crazy roller coaster life after then. Sigh, I have never expected taking a Master can be this exhausting. Argh!

Juggling work and study is TOUGH, see that block letters? It is really T.O.U.G.H. I am sure I am good in managing my time, all I can say is.. I picked the "coldest" subject. It was tough to get proper agency to do practicum. Trust me, I called all agencies which I could get from google, and NONE of them willing to take a F.R.E.E Labour! Come on peeps.. I am FREE! and I am a good worker tooooooooooo! *like I could say this to their faces* 

Eventually, I am now with 2 organizations that help refugees, looking to join the 3rd (not excited at all). I was -------------------------------------------- this happy when 1st organization accepted me as a intern-counsellor. But, but.. I only get 1 client in 5 months! I was totally a free labour there, they only assign all toils/administration/paper work for me. And now, my supervisor is leaving that org, hence.. I will stop my service there. Oh well.. I became 

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- this upset. 

Honestly, you might be hoping that I can tell you fun stories, crazy people I met during my sessions. But NO WAY~! Confidential ok.. Muahah.. not interesting anyway. 

Doing this practicum has basically reduced my interest and passion towards counselling, maybe Malaysia is not a good place to practice yet. I feel demoralized more than anything else. Uhhh... tired. I went for 2nd org today, but there was no one.. I was just babysitting the kids. I dragged myself back from there after 1.30pm, and took a long nap.. I haven't had "good" sleep for so many months. 

Working 7 days a week can kill you! Or.. at least your cells. Enough complaining~ the only song that cheers me up recently is "Good Life - One Republic". Let's whistle *wee wee wee*

Alright! My brain just went in to sleep mode. I need to lie down and try-not-to-think-of-anything at all. Hope you have been doing well!!!! Just hang in there, your effort will pay-pay-ay-ay-ay~ What is there to complain about? =)

Talk soon! 

Life = Drama

Life fun fact # 1

You know what.. I really think that John Grey is right, especially the book he wrote, don't tell me you have never heard of it! I know the cover is a bit lame, bright pink and white! Sooo pro-woman, isn't it? bit of gender biased there! Ha, I am quite a smart ass eh! You might not believe it, but I am !! :D

Alright, back to story.. I know it's Christmas night~ no one will be here clicking.. anyway!

Life fun fact # 2

I am sure every single human who is breathing now has have this experience more than 1 time: "yelling, frowning, shouting, going mad, cursing, crying, laughing out bitterly.... to the computer screen". DON'T TELL ME YOU HAVE NOT ~!! I won't believe you.

Life fun fact # 3

Do you love cute stuff ?! just like how my favorite (actually, one of my favourites) cartoon Sin Chan. He adopted Shiro (lil white) and began to take care of it.



Sometimes, he just held Shiro soooo tight until it fainted or visualized stars ~*~*~* Well.. I don't think he just loves to hold Shiro, if you have watched this cartoon, you probably will do the same! Why? Cause Shiro is like cotton candy, you would just want to feel how soft it is~ Umm.. just like when you see a bubble, you want to pop it ! make sense right?



Life fun fact # 4

Sometimes, I like to sit and watch from my room's window.. Nah, it's not like the view is breathtaking, it never is! Lots of annoying neighbors, old folks. But look up higher, I can see the clear, dark navy blue sky.. maybe if you could remove the lamppost for me it would be perfect.



Life fun fact # 5

It's just amazing that after looking up to the sky, cold cold air is sometimes brought into the lung and filled it with warmth and determination: Ganbate.. Whoa! look, I am saying something meaningful here! I couldn't stand to give myself a pat on shoulder now "hmm~ quite philosophical today huh!"



Life fun fact #6

TO BE CONTINUE - THE PLAN? YOU NEVER KNOW ! Just keep walking and playing~

Life fun fact # 7

Life is like drama, but there isn't a script for it, too bad!!! It will just play by itself when you take the next step, even you choose to stay stagnant, it will still play. Maybe your audience will fall asleep as your screen hang there! Oh yea.. I have a story to share here:



There were few poisonous email exchanging from my world with another corner of the planet.. (same planet of coz !) Guess the e-postman was on leave one day, one mail went missing. Mr. A didn't receive any reply while Ms. B was waiting there.. and decision was made with misunderstanding.. neither of them knew..

Like a show right?! old school show !

The truth finally revealed one day, unfortunately/fortunately.. It was already too late.



Life fun fact # 8

People always say that "hey! be nice, be polite, be considerate." I don't deny that, that's pretty useful when I need a favor. BUT ! I have to admit that there are times, you just need to be not-polite, not-considerate, not-nice. It helps one to let out all the underlying feelings, it also helps another to have a hard knock on head to wake up.



Life fun fact # 9

It is always good to sleep early.. I think I am running out of fun facts today. HOHO ~
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE : )

Wish you all have a wonderful night and get ready for the new year. I'll miss you 2010.

17. 12. 10 1.09 am

It has been a chilly day.

I sneeze, since I woke up and even now.

It is a cold cold night, it makes me wonder: we have winter too!

It's late now and certainly, it is unusual that I am still awake. I can't sleep..

I don't feel sleepy at all.

*hu..h* a long warm air passes my nostril. What's on my mind?

I don't know.

There were some automatic self-talk, I try to stop it somehow.

But my mind is still pondering on. What now?

Cold Cold Night.

信。

我不奢求你去相信，我真的不想你再那么折磨，你不应该是那只可怜的小狗。。 无法让你自由的呼吸， 我心很痛。。 也了解你值得拥有更美好的一切。这一次的告别是真的想把你放开。。

飞吧。。 4 年的捆绑真的不好过， 我没有什么可以再为你做了。。 这是我最后可以给你的。。

希望你可以简简单单的读这些话，我没有隐藏其他的意思。真的。

你一定要过得比以前更快乐，好好努力向梦想前进，珍惜家人和朋友。

加油.

An Odd Queer with the Revolist

Mission to be diligent !

Right, I think I have not told you yet.. that I have found a job! Woo hoo~!! I shall be reporting to work on Wednesday. Soooon! So soooooon~!! Can hardly wait *honestly* What worries me now is my study.. Hmm~ Will I able to cope it? I guess I can :D



Counting down the days and chapters to cover, I have loads to read according to the study guide!!! And I have an ambitious aim --- To read ahead the guide ! (clap clap) So this was what indeed happened....

Concentrated. Focused. Couldn't be more!

It was really interesting to read about cognition, behavior and emotions. Technically my process should be good without any distraction. Umm.. well.. How should I put it?? There was a book there - colorful, comical, hilarious, great artworks... awesome (enough!) It looked more appealing than the one I was holding - Black and White. Tried not to look at it.. disregard ed the temptation! HA!
I failed~


I don't think anyone in this world can resist!

I didn't realize how much time had passed while I was enjoying Eiichida's artworks. But I can assure you that I did not spend long time on it. Yupe, only like.. 10 mins? Unfortunately, my clock ticks faster than my *mental clock* ~


Making Up ~~!!

Frenziedly turned my attention back to the text book, and I successfully read a few pages without peeping at other temptations. It was pretty enjoyable~ Either I'd spent too much time operating my brain usage or the skills provided in text are just too effective. I fell asleep half way during Topic "Relaxation"....

ZZZZZzzzzzzzz.....

So I think, it's not my fault~ haha :D