怎么爱你都不够

不久前听到这一句话，说是男生的心声。
也许吧！然而，我今天却有新的领悟：家人，传统的一个家庭，这不就是那根深蒂固的问题吗？因为不管你、她、他或他们做了多少，似乎都无法弥补过去。过去的，过不去，有何良药可以让这种种的心病痊愈？我想，只有神人才懂吧。
我怎么爱你，都不够。

无须有，苦的一页

在这样的一个夜里，我嚎啕的哭了。忍住那从心无名的痛，让脑放肆的重播昨晚听过的话。。我不要再问了，我也不想懂了，万万想不到我会那么伤心。一切都是过去式，但我却输给自己的记忆能力，我会忘掉吗？怎办呢？烙下去了吗？我不要。疯狂的想象力让我窒息。。我要祷告，请让我不再为这些假象的恐惧心痛，放空，影响。鼻塞了。。眼蒙了。。我想有人给个拥抱我。我真是个胆小鬼。但，终于哭出来，舒服多了。。。 爱一个人，不容易哦。。

I am here dedicating this song to you..

who are going through a breakup..

experienced a real love..

lost a love..

met someone at a wrong place, wrong time..

someone specially for you is awaiting somewhere.. 

walk forward and you will meet =) 

分开之后另一年的春天

记忆也像下雪一样溶解

那些有你在身边的影片

呼的一声飞得老远老远

爱在夏天过完之后 锁在秋天

当爱过多年之后的我 好了一些

雨后的天上 彩虹出现 衬出一片蓝天

我在淋过一场大雨之后的晴朗

那是春雨里洗过的太阳

每个冬季带来失落 伤得多深

然后忽然看懂云的形状

If you listen to the rhythm of the pouring rain

每个呼吸都是新的芬芳

流下的眼泪 留下了智慧

爱情会天亮 也一定会黑

世界会等我 它问我冬天过去没

那是春雨里洗过的太阳 (春雨你的太阳)

每个冬季带来失落 伤得多深 (伤得多深)

每个呼吸都是你的芬芳

春雨里洗过的太阳

好難得...

好難得 我們遇見了對的人
難得好幾輩子的好運才有機會完成
好難得 我們愛上了對的人
就算他不是到最後的人
也祝他更勇敢愛別人
 =)

You deserve goodness and you will receive it..

L.o.V.e 

Learn to <3

Learn to care 

A caring word may warm a cold cold heart

Learn to receive love

Open up your locked heart, 

Listen, listen to your heart.. "Is the padlock keeping you in or keeping the people out?" 

Courage, yuuki. 

Ganbate, the sky loves everyone who loves themselves and love others.

=)

Guardian Angel

A Time to Cheer

A Time to Cry

A Time to Laugh

A Time to Sigh

A Time for You

A Time for Me

A Time of Really Falling In Lo.V.e 

A Day when I really feel like Writting

  

Today, a "long lost" feeling surfaces and tickles me.. "write something.." I hear it repeating gently. It's really been awhile from the previous blog, yes.. I'm just lazy, very lazy in jotting down my thoughts and emotions. Originally, I was planning to write in Mandarin as I can see the characters dancing in my mind, forming my thoughts into sentences and they're waiting me to lay them out on a piece of paper or blog, perhaps, even by reciting it. Unfortunately, when I'm all set to blog it, I realized that this laptop only has "Eng - US". Oh well.. maybe not this time. :)

My words and thoughts are always being scribbled down in various notepad, planner, and scrap papers.. I flip through a brown petite notebook which has my most "recent" journals. I read, and I saw my sadness, worries, confession, courage and changes. Not sure if you have the same feeling, I tend to feel shy or rather awkward when reread my journals, ha. It's quite a complicated taste, bittersweet, sour-sweet, & blend.. 

So much had happened, I really want to thank God that I met this new person in my 28 age of life, Mr. W.C. Yupe! It sounds like "toilet", which coincidentally matches my last name "Loo". It just tickles me when I made the association. :) Not too sure how far this will last.. I have so much to write here but a line always hold me back from saying this. HE once told me that "ain't all girls dream of marrying the boyfriend they met? The first one, second one.. every relationship they have, they tend to think of marrying the person.." Honestly, I didn't say that he was wrong or debated it. Perhaps, it was indeed a blindspot that I've never realized and I'd been rationalizing it as "yes, I'm loyal girl". But now, I am certain that I know how I feel, I know that I can speak up when the timing is right, I know what I want in life, and most importantly, W.C understands all of these very well without me pushing it or needed to clarify repeatedly. It's like a spell, even I have problems accepting this. I doubt, him? No.. myself. Too much had happened which make me lost a bit of trust, or rather self-trust. Sometimes, it just amazed me how he gets my point and restating it well. Clarity, is what I see in this relationship at the moment. And, it feels good indeed. Thank you Mr. Tee :)

So much had happened, I really wish to retrieve the closeness with my best friend, Nee nee. No matter what have happened, I can't turn back time or adjust the clock to repair or undo it. I'm glad that she is happy, genuinely happy for her life now. I am happy for you, sincerely. Self-doubt, yes.. this just popping up again, and I am pressing "backspace, backspace..." again and again. Why? Cause, somehow, I am have tiny feeling telling me that, she has lost trust in me. The pure trust that we used to have. I know we have clarified and we promised that things are all right now. I think it just me, sense of guilt, sense of uncertainty, sense of distance.. I pray that all these will disappear when we meet again, hangout, chit-chat and tease each other like the good'o days. Just want to assure all of you that, I have learned to keep my distance, I recently heard a line.."It's a also a kind of respect when you know When to Step back". I am still practicing, please allow me take some time to master this. Remind me when I do it unintentionally again, I always welcome a gentle reminder. :) I bought a gift for Nee nee, it's still in my white shelve, I will hand it to you when I am ready. hehe.. All the best my dearest friend, I am here no matter what, let me know when you need help, or even just an ear. Anytime, anywhere. 

It's getting dark out there, hope the haze is gone by now.. I miss the sun shining brightly on the blue sky. Life goes on, C'est La Vie. :)

年少無知

作曲：黃貫中 填詞：林若寧 編曲：黃貫中 / 劉志遠 監製：黃貫中 Lyric @ Lemon Music Group 檸音樂歌詞網

年少多好　頑劣多好　不甘安於封建制度裡 迷信上街真理會達到
旗幟高舉　群眾聲討　不惜犧牲一切去上訴 權貴的想法太俗套
只可惜生活是一堆挫折　只可惜生命是必須妥協

年少多好　貧困多好　一蚊積蓄足以快樂到 廉價結他抒發我暴躁
財富得到　年歲不保　捐輸不必講究有回報 人世間總會有異數
只可惜生活是一聲發洩　只可惜生命是一聲抱歉　
怕追到

如果　命運能選擇　十字街口你我踏出的每步更瀟灑
如果　活著能坦白　舊日所相信價值不必接受時代的糟蹋

年少多好　朋友多好　一番爭執不會有被告
遊戲競爭不會記入腦 年歲增長　無法修補　
青春的詩總會老　時間多恐怖

如果　命運能選擇　十字街口你我踏出的每步無用困惑
如果　活著能坦白　舊日所相信價值今天發現還未老
如果　命運能演習　現實中不致接納一生每步殘酷抉擇
留守　過去的想法　我會否好像這樣生於世上無目的鞭撻

Thank you for letting me to meet you :)

Now that I've met you, I hope I can work, so we can work to work it out.

And I also hope you'll make me work, so we can work to work it out ~ ^^